One of those days....

As the year comes to an end I start to reflect on things I have did. I look back and it truly hasn't been much. I have had some wonderful times this year, some real wonderful times. I just don't feel like I did much. I am still in the same situation which is no job, and little to no money. I am trying to look for a job and school is getting in the way. Well it's more like tha activties I am in...Black Student Union is fine and dandy, but cheerleading might just have to get cut...Coach is making her money...but I am not...so I am putting cheering at the bottom of my priorities. I am not really all that good anyways.   So I going to look for a job and not take in consideration that I have to cheer. Hey the boys stink anyway. I am mad right now. I don't feel like being nice and taking ppl's feeling in consideration. Why should I care about theirs when they wouldn't give fuckin shits about mines. So this new year...I am thinkin about ME and only ME...and only ME. I am the only one that can look out for me. Sure friends and family are cool, but really...to tell you think truth they aren't that much of a help...all they do is give u encouragement...I dont need that shit..that's not doing to put food in my belly...that's not going to put food on my back...that's not going fix a mothafucking thing. To tell you the truth it will go in one ear and right out the other BECAUSE YOU DONT KNOW WHAT IM GOING THROUGH.  Ppl want me to come visit them and shit, but I have to do all the work, the traveling, and all the planning, for what? So I can see you? I mean that's cool in all, but I am only leaving my problems for a short period.. you are all fine and dandy, but when I leave I have to go home to the same shit. Problems. Which brings me to another thing...ppl always want me to do shit for them. Can you help me with this? Can you do that? Can you give me this? Can you visit me? I always say YES...I am going to say FUCK NO. I know helping ppl out is a good thing...but who is there to help me out NO FUCKING BODY...just my grams and my othe granddad. Ppl want to see me and all this shit. I have to find money to get there. I am not helping out ppl any more. I will only if I am getting something out of it. Why should I just help out? It is pointless because I am the one sitting ass out with nothing in the end, but the knowledge of knowing I did a good deed. It's a whole lot of money out there and I am ready to take it. I don't have anyone...so ppl saying they are here for me and shit is just that SHIT. They are just there to say they are there. but they are not.  Ppl always say I am crazy. and that's only because I tell the DEADASS truth *sometimes, but I will starting now*. I am not being nice that SHIT GETS YOU NOWHERE BUT WORRIES AND PROBLEMS. Man fuck that. I got in this world of sin is ME AND ME...so in 2011 please except me: 

1. NOT GIVING A FUCK
2. LOOKIN OUT FOR ME FIRST
3. SAY NO A LOT
4. BEING A BITCH
5. BEING STUCK UP
6. AND GETTIN SHIT DONE
7. OH AND NOT GIVIN A FUCK

and I am done for now but there will be more. Oh if you stop talking to me, or associating with me or anything like that I GIVES NO FUCK. So get use to it. Trust it. I will still do what I have to do with school and BSU, but when I am thats all ima be on is gettin out of there and lookin out ofr me. FUCK LOVEFUCK FRIENDS & FRIENDSNow a lot of ppl think they are my friends but TRUTH BE TOLD, and it's being told right now....YOU REALLY AREN'T. Most ppl annoy me, and I am pretty sure I annoy them...but I GIVES NO FUCK.... that is all...signed Miss. IDGAF Attitude  ::Connie Ambitious::