I am 20 years old, so it's time I start actin like I am not longer a teenager anymore. I am in my 20's now. I am one year off from being officially grown. It's time to show the world I mean business.
5/31/2010
The True Stand Up Guy
I have allow myself to let ppl get away with way too much shit. Nigga you never wanted me you just wanted to fuck me (a lot of dudes do for some reason *shrugs shoulders idk y*). I am going need you to stop lying to yourself, so you can stop lying to me. All you do is LIE LIE AND FUCKING LIE SOME MORE. You shit a lot of shit too. "I am not like other dudes I am different", you said. "All dudes aren't they same, I will show you." You talk too much crap and you never backed it up (well you showed me a lot). I have since woken up from that fantasy world. We never hung out because you always stood me up (I have never been stood up before but you have stood me up more than 4 times *smh*). I laughed when you cursed me out that one night for going out on AN ACTUAL DATE. YOU CRACKED ME THE FUCK UP WITH THAT ONE LOL. You never took me out on a date so wtf was you bitchin for lol. Oh and you thought I was ok with you talking to other bitches na nigga nope I SURE AS FUCK WASN'T. I still don't know why you showed that bitch my pic who goes to my school. I see that bitch never introduced herself. She stayed out of my fucking way. AND WTF YOU SHOW HER MY PICTURE FOR....SMH. Man forget you. You are a poor excuse for a man like really. When I finish writing this post my truly done with you.. I just want to let you know that you help me realize guys are still assholes and you are a big one. You treated me like shit. I wish I never would have responded to you. I should have just ignored you. I FUCKIN HATE YOU AND I MEAN IT WITH ALL THE HATE IN THE WORLD. You can text everyone in the world and you claim you cared for me so go choke on something. Fuck you, you piece of shit. You communicate like shit. You only text me at night when everything is closed BITCH i am not no fucking secret. You only text me when you want. SO LIKE I SAID BEFORE SINCE IM NOT IMPORTANT IN YOU LIFE YOU ARE NO LONGER IMPORTANT IM MINES. So once again I hate you and you a lower than scum. You can kiss my ass. Fuck you!!!!!!!!!!!
5/30/2010
5/29/2010
FED UP
I am going to stop saying I am going do something. Talk is cheap, so I will just show you. I will stop depending on ppl too. I will show you I mean business.
Light Bulb!?!?!?!?!?
I must realize that I am truly alone in this world.
I mean ppl say they will be there for me, but when I do happen to reach out for some help or something all I hear is crickets. So what that being said.
I AM GOING TO BE LESS DEPENDENT OF PPL. I am going to stop including ppl in my plans.
I will just document stuff and you will see it on here. No more being the nice chick. I have to grow some permanent balls and keep them. So with that being said fuck feelings, emotions, and all that soft shit. It's time to get my own shit. I don't need anyone pulling me down.
5/28/2010
Happy Birthday!!!!
I also have a friend who shares the same birthday.
5/27/2010
Rated R
This has got to be her best album ever. I listen to the album from track one to the last track.
WTF really B.E.T??? Like really? FUCK BET
What the fuck is wrong with BET banning ciara's "Ride" video? They need to stop tripping. I don't know why they fucking wit her. I am really not watching BET anymore. It's not that I will be missing much. I don't even watch it now because they don't have any good stuff. 106 and Park is wack not for some reason. They let Lil Wayne sing about gettin his dick sucked and Trey invented his sex
It is some compelete fuckery and they need to play it.
Not a bad idea?!?!?!?!?
The recession is kicking my ass. I think I need to find me one or some of these until I get on my feet. Temp Sugar Baby
5/26/2010
Welcome to my SEX ROOM LOL
In all realness I plan on having on of these rooms in my house. I will have poles, swings, chairs, handcuffs and a lot of other things. I AM TELLIN YOU MY HUSBAND WILL NEVER CHEAT ON ME LOL.
I'm 20
I am so happy to be out of my teens. yes!!! I am 20. It is about time I start steppin my cookie all the fuck up.I will post pictures later.
The "happy birthday" pictures were found on the web. I DON'T OWN THEM.
GEMINI'S ALLLLLLL DAY!!!!! EVERYDAY SON LMAO!!!
5/25/2010
Gemini & Me
If you understand what a Gemini is, then you are a step closer to understanding me!!!!!!
Gemini
May 21 - June 21
Gemini is the third sign of the zodiac, and those born under this sign will be quick to tell you all about it. That's because they love to talk! It's not just idle chatter with these folks, either. The driving force behind a Gemini's conversation is their mind. The Gemini-born are intellectually inclined, forever probing people and places in search of information. The more information a Gemini collects, the better. Sharing that information later on with those they love is also a lot of fun, for Geminis are supremely interested in developing their relationships. Dalliances with these folks are always enjoyable, since Geminis are bright, quick-witted and the proverbial life of the party. Even though their intellectual minds can rationalize forever and a day, Geminis also have a surplus of imagination waiting to be tapped. Can a Gemini be boring? Never!
Since Geminis are a mix of the yin and the yang, they are represented perfectly by the Twins. The Gemini-born can easily see both sides of an issue, a wonderfully practical quality. Less practical is the fact that you're not sure which Twin will show up half the time. Geminis may not know who's showing up either, which can prompt others to consider them fickle and restless.
They can be wishy-washy, too, changing their mood on a simple whim. It's this characteristic which readily suggests the Mutable Quality assigned to this sign. Mutable folks are flexible and go with the flow. Further, the Twins are adaptable and dexterous and can tackle many things at once. It's a good thing, too, when you consider their myriad interests. The downside of such a curious mind, however, can be a lack of follow-through. How much can any one person do, anyway?
Ruled by Mercury, Geminis exhibit a delicious brand of mercurial energy. They are quick-thinking, quick-witted and fast on their feet, much like the messenger god of Roman mythology that rules their sign. Geminis are both curious and clever, which is why they are such a hit at cocktail parties. Although they talk a great game, they also love to listen and learn. With any kind of luck, the Twins will find themselves in interesting company, because if they don't, they are likely to get bored and start fidgeting. Any social setting is a good one for a Gemini, however, since these folks are charming, congenial and love to share themselves with their friends. While their effusiveness may be misconstrued as scheming by some, Geminis generally have their hearts in the right place. It's that ample energy which can also paint them as scatterbrained and unfocused, but behind all that zipping around, the Twins are busily filing all that good data away.
The element associated with Gemini is Air. Air signs are the thinking person's signs, and the Twins don't disappoint. Those born under this sign prize intellect and consider it the key to all things. At work, they are the clearest of thinkers, looking at a project from all (well, at least two) sides and putting forth some logical and well-thought-out ideas. This quality makes Geminis an asset to any team, and while these folks are not inclined to take the lead, they are a most valuable component. It's also the Gemini's literary bent that allows them to offer a useful perspective on most any situation. The Twins also enjoy bringing their objective reasoning and big-picture ability into their personal relationships. While some may perceive all this logical thought as cold and unemotional, it's simply how these folks tick. They want to connect, they just do it their own way. Luckily for Geminis (and their pals), their lightness of spirit and youthful exuberance help them to appear forever young. In keeping with that skip in their step, Geminis enjoy short road trips -- and their agile minds and nimble hands ensure that they could change a tire (if needed) in no time flat. Is all of this Twin-energy more than any one person can handle? Ah, maybe that's why they are two.
When it comes to sports, Geminis would seem a natural for doubles tennis -- and they are. They love the camaraderie of games and play, which is why they excel at team events. Whether it's volleyball or a game of charades, Geminis are always ready to play. A book club would certainly stimulate their literary minds. In the game of love, Geminis are playful, flirtatious and endless fun. Physically speaking, Gemini rules the nervous system, which is why Twins should practice yoga or deep breathing techniques. Layering themselves in soft yellows and blues will also calm their mood.
The great strength of the Gemini-born is in their ability to communicate effectively and to think clearly. Adventures of the mind are what the Twins are all about. They also love to share themselves with their friends, and they make for charming companions.
Do you want me or my body?
That is the question at hand. I can never tell these days. Dudes claim " I am trying to get to know you ", in reality they just want to fuck. I SWEAR. It's always they same. I miss the days when dudes was up front about their feelings and thoughts. They just hide behind this fuckin scheme because they are afraid. I am upfront about my shit, and why can't I get the same in return. Or they wait until you get into a relationship to tell you their feelings. WTF man!!!!!
5/24/2010
Really? not again
I had plans to go play capture the flag with some friends. I had to run some errands with my Grandma, so I couldn't attend it. While I am running some errands, I run into an old friend.*I shouldn't call him a friend because he's not---more of a arrogant lyin p.o.s* I have tired to make this friendship work. I am only person I can only do some much. It takes two to make a friendship/relationship work. He then cancel the plans like I knew he would. WHAT A FUCKING SEND OFF? I have been sent off quite awhile right Deon and C.T. It's whatever I have ppl who love to kick it with me. It's funny how ppl never know what they have until it's gone or should I say taken which brings me into my next post.
Relationship means:
1. the state of being connected or related
2. association by blood or marriage; kinship
3. the mutual dealings, connections, or feelings that exist between two parties, countries, people, etc.a business relationship
4. an emotional or sexual affair or liaison
Friendship means:
1. The quality or condition of being friends.
2. A friendly relationship: formed many new friendships over the summer.
3. Friendliness; good will: a policy of friendship toward other nations
So basically fuck you very much. I can't waste time someone/something that seems to keep declining as I put in more work.
5/23/2010
Well I'll be daymmmnnned
I have been hearing that "YOU MUST BE BIPOLAR", so I googled it. I found the following:Overview
Bipolar disorder involves periods of excitability (mania) alternating with periods of depression. The "mood swings" between mania and depression can be very abrupt.
Symptoms
The manic phase may last from days to months and can include the following symptoms:
- Agitation or irritation
- Elevated mood
- Hyperactivity
- Increased energy
- Lack of self-control
- Racing thoughts
- Inflated self-esteem (delusions of grandeur, false beliefs in special abilities)
- Little need for sleep
- Over-involvement in activities
- Poor temper control
- Reckless behavior
- Binge eating, drinking, and/or drug use
- Impaired judgment
- Sexual promiscuity
- Spending sprees
- Tendency to be easily distracted
The depressed phase of both types of bipolar disorder involves very serious symptoms of major depression:
- Difficulty concentrating, remembering, or making decisions
- Eating disturbances
- Loss of appetite and weight loss
- Overeating and weight gain
- Fatigue or listlessness
- Feelings of worthlessness, hopelessness and/or guilt
- Loss of self-esteem
- Persistent sadness
- Persistent thoughts of death
- Sleep disturbances
- Excessive sleepiness
- Inability to sleep
- Suicidal thoughts
- Withdrawal from activities that were once enjoyed
- Withdrawal from friends
Sometimes there is an overlap between the two phases. Manic and depressive symptoms may occur simultaneously or in quick succession in what is called a mixed state.
Treatment
For the manic phase of bipolar disorder, antipsychotic medications, lithium, and mood stabilizers are typically used. For the depressive phase, antidepressants are sometimes used, with or without the manic phase treatment.
There is very little long-term evidence suggesting that any medication has great success in the maintenance phase. However, in studies that followed patients for 2 years, lithium and some antipsychotics were found to be moderately successful.
Antipsychotic drugs can help a person who has lost touch with reality. Anti-anxiety drugs, such as benzodiazepines, may also help. The patient may need to stay in a hospital until his or her mood has stabilized and symptoms are under control.
Electroconvulsive therapy (ECT) may be used to treat bipolar disorder. ECT is a psychiatric treatment that uses an electrical current to cause a brief seizure of the central nervous system while the patient is under anesthesia. Studies have repeatedly found that ECT is the most effective treatment for depression that is not relieved with medications.
Getting enough sleep helps keep a stable mood in some patients. Psychotherapy may be a useful option during the depressive phase. Joining a support group may be particularly helpful for bipolar disorder patients and their loved ones.
Causes
Bipolar disorder affects men and women equally. It usually appears between ages 15 - 25. The exact cause is unknown, but it occurs more often in relatives of people with bipolar disorder.
Bipolar disorder results from disturbances in the areas of the brain that regulate mood.
There are two primary types of bipolar disorder. People with bipolar disorder I have had at least one fully manic episode with periods of major depression. In the past, bipolar disorder I was called manic depression.
People with bipolar disorder II seldom experience full-fledged mania. Instead they experience periods of hypomania (elevated levels of energy and impulsiveness that are not as extreme as the symptoms of mania). These hypomanic periods alternate with episodes of major depression.
A mild form of bipolar disorder called cyclothymia involves periods of hypomania and mild depression, with less severe mood swings. People with bipolar disorder II or cyclothymia may be misdiagnosed as having depression alone.
Tests & diagnosis
A diagnosis of bipolar disorder involves consideration of many factors. The health care provider may do some or all of the following:
- Ask about your family medical history, particularly whether anyone has or had bipolar disorder
- Ask about your recent mood swings and for how long you've experienced them
- Observe your behavior and mood
- Perform a thorough examination to identify or rule out physical causes for the symptoms
- Request laboratory tests to check for thyroid problems or drug levels
- Speak with your family members to discuss their observations about your behavior
- Take a medical history, including any medical problems you have and any medications you take
Note: Use of recreational drugs may be responsible for some symptoms, though this does not rule out bipolar affective disorder. Drug abuse may itself be a symptom of bipolar disorder.
Mood-stabilizing medication can help control the symptoms of bipolar disorder. However, patients often need help and support to take medicine properly and to ensure that any episodes of mania and depression are treated as early as possible.
Some people stop taking the medication as soon as they feel better or because they want to experience the productivity and creativity associated with mania. Although these early manic states may feel good, discontinuing medication may have very negative consequences.
Suicide is a very real risk during both mania and depression. Suicidal thoughts, ideas, and gestures in people with bipolar affective disorder require immediate emergency attention.
Complications
Stopping or improperly taking medication can cause your symptoms to come back, and lead to the following complications:
- Alcohol and/or drug abuse as a strategy to "self-medicate"
- Personal relationships, work, and finances suffer
- Suicidal thoughts and behaviors
When to contact a doctor
Call your health provider or an emergency number right way if:
- You are having thoughts of death or suicide
- You are experiencing severe symptoms of depression or mania
- You have been diagnosed with bipolar disorder and your symptoms have returned or you are having any new symptoms
So I have come to the conclusion....That maybe, JUST maybe I might be a lil bipolar. I am going to find a way to get checked out.
I got my info from here.
stupid chick
that lady at vs...is fucking stupid. yung, i dont wear no damn c bra. i have itty bitties and i m damn proud.
really?
Once again I have sleeping on this bloggin shit. I REALLY ENJOY BLOGGIN. I am just to lazy to get my ass up.
5/20/2010
So Tru
"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that frightens us most. We ask ourselves, 'Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, and famous?' Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that people won't feel insecure around you. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in all of us. And when we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.?
-Maryanne Williamson
I am....
A good woman is proud of herself. She respects herself and others. She is aware of who she is. She neither seeks definition from the person she is with, nor does she expect them to read her mind. She is quite capable of articulating her needs.
A good woman is hopeful. She is strong enough to make all her dreams come true. She knows love, therefore she gives loves. She recognizes that her love has great value and must be reciprocated. If her love is taken for granted, it soon disappears.
A good woman has a dash of inspiration, a dabble of endurance. She knows that she will, at times, have to inspire others to reach the potential God gave them. A good woman knows her past, understands her present and moves toward the future.
A good woman knows God. She knows that with God the world is her playground, but without God she will just be played. A good woman does not live in fear of the future because of her past. Instead, she understands that her life experiences are merely lessons, meant to bring her closer to self knowledge and unconditional self love. Girl Smile. . . YOU KNOW YOU HAVE IT GOING ON!. . . So Keep ON Keeping On.
Danceology -Twerkin
So the first dance I want to master is twerking. I never liked twerking as a child, but as I get older it's nice to know how to do a lil somethin somethin. If I don't learn how to do it the next girl will.
I am trying to get on TWERK TEAM status. This might take a while because these females are TALENTED. I am up for this challenge.
Twerk means "shaking ass while dancing"
So I have realized how twerking is done. It is a mixture of hip, knee, leg, feet, and muscles movements. What kind of muscles? Ass and leg muscles :0 You don't have to have an ass to twerk, but you will develop one. An ass is extra. It makes the twerking look wonderful.
So my 30 day twerk trial will been tomorrow:)
Danceology
Ok, I figured that I want to be the best dancer. So that means I need to MASTER a lot of dances. I can dance really good. I just procrastinate A LOT. Now this segment of True Life: I am a Dancer will document my progress. This should be fun, but it will take a lot of work and dedication. I I will be learning how to tumble, and that will come in handy :)
5/18/2010
One of my idols
This video is beautiful, but it always makes me sad because this is the last video she made.
5/14/2010
5/10/2010
My cup run'th over
So this pass Saturday while shopping at Victoria's Secret. I found out that I wear a size C. I still don't believe that. I need to get remeasured. I mean I'm thinking I wear size A. But according to VS, I don't lol.
5/09/2010
NO PHONE
Corey I have been phone less all day I WILL TEXT YOU WHEN I GET IT BACK
I dont like having Spirint. The service has been acting pretty funny.
iron man 2
Last night I saw Iron Man 2 in IMAX. I must say it was totally A W E S O M E. I am a total dork. I love anime and comics.
Last night or should i say early this morning I went to see Iron Man 2. I saw it in IMAX. It was awesome. I loved the movie. I really enjoyed myself. If you haven't seen it please do so. I didn't even know SAMUEL L. jACKSON was in the movie until I seen him in the movie lmao. And Scarlett Johansson was awesome in the moive. she played the black widow. I started to call myself that in december. i am thinking on going to the comic con in chicago this year. i paid $13 per person. I paid for a good friend of mines.
Happy Mother's Day
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| Glam Shot of my mom at the age of 26 |
I LOVE YOU MOMMY! She has been through a lot and still manage to take care of us.
Domino's Pizza
I always order my pizza online because I think it's awesome and because I CAN GET FREE FOOD OR DEALS:)
OK IN THE PROMO CODE BOX:
FIVEOFF -$5 off when you order a Large Pizza
DRINKS -2 FREE 20-ounce Drinks with your Online Purchase
SANDWICH -Free Oven Baked Sandwich when you buy a Large Pizza at menu price
BREAD -Any bread for $.99 with any pizza order
Connie the Fab
I have realized that I am a true bitch. I am going to stop talking about other ppl. Me talking a bout them or just listening to ppl talk about them isn't cool. I am thru watching ppl live their own lives while i just sit in the crowd and watch. I have to change my ways for the best. I have suspended myself from facebook. I am going to start post things or here (for my bestie c). i cant waste my time on others. I have to do me, and not only for me but for my future fam.
5/05/2010
Oh Okay Now
YOU KNOW IM RIGHT!!!! THAT'S WHY YOU GOT MAD WHEN I CALLED YOU AN ASSHOLE. I THINK YOU ARE ONE. I'M PRETTY SURE YOUR FRIENDS DO. YOU EVEN THINK IT. THE REASON HOW I KNOW YOU THINK IT BECAUSE WHEN I CALLED YOU ONE...YOU HAVE BEEN THINKING ABOUT IT EVERY SINCE.
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