Smh.......

Dear ***,

I am mad at myself because for some reason (one I wish I knew) I still like you. I don't know why. I try to tell myself things help me to stop liking you *SMH* nothing is fucking working. And the people that really care about me are telling me to leave you alone. They are looking out for my best interest, but they don't kno this feeling im feelin...I can't explain it. It is not love but it is this wierd ass bond. I really wish I could explain the feeling. I sorta kinda wish I could murder that feeling too. We have some kind of hold on each other. I mean we cannot stay away from each other for too long. I wish we wasn't so DAMN STUBBORN. I know you still like me because I can feel it, so you can fight your feelings, hide them or whatever . I am just real enough to admit them. I sound VERY CRAZY right now, but it's hard to explain. I wish you was real enough to admit that shit *SMH* denial truly is a bitch. I mean you said it yourself that you missed me once before. You said you missed the 3 f's. But see our definition of FRIENDS is different. You just want to talk to a ton of females. Well you don't really talk. I don't know why because you always have that cell phone with you. ALL YOU DO IT TEXT ALL DAMN DAY. I regret letting your friend upset me that one day. Me and you was kinda doin well. Even though we kinda had an arguement the day before. I just don't understand why you dont want to be friends. I mean sure I like you, but I rather be friends with you than nothing. You think that I am trying to be back with you, but I am not. But then again, I think we should stay away from each other (but we both know that is impossible..we will continue to talk on and off because we are both strong willed GEMINIs).


TO BE CONTINUED.....