Well daymmmmmmmmmmmnnnnnnnnn

I will seriously do somethings to Chris Brown. *thinkin*

i will update this bitch later lol. i have a softball game to get ready for.

Well I'll be daymmmnnned

I have been hearing that "YOU MUST BE BIPOLAR", so I googled it. I found the following:

Overview

Bipolar disorder involves periods of excitability (mania) alternating with periods of depression. The "mood swings" between mania and depression can be very abrupt.

Symptoms

The manic phase may last from days to months and can include the following symptoms:

• Agitation or irritation
• Elevated mood
• Hyperactivity
• Increased energy
• Lack of self-control
• Racing thoughts
• Inflated self-esteem (delusions of grandeur, false beliefs in special abilities)
• Little need for sleep
• Over-involvement in activities
• Poor temper control
• Reckless behavior
• Binge eating, drinking, and/or drug use
• Impaired judgment
• Sexual promiscuity
• Spending sprees
• Tendency to be easily distracted

These symptoms of mania are seen with bipolar disorder I. In people with bipolar disorder II, hypomanic episodes involve similar symptoms that are less intense.

The depressed phase of both types of bipolar disorder involves very serious symptoms of major depression:

• Difficulty concentrating, remembering, or making decisions
• Eating disturbances
• Loss of appetite and weight loss
• Overeating and weight gain
• Fatigue or listlessness
• Feelings of worthlessness, hopelessness and/or guilt
• Loss of self-esteem
• Persistent sadness
• Persistent thoughts of death
• Sleep disturbances
• Excessive sleepiness
• Inability to sleep
• Suicidal thoughts
• Withdrawal from activities that were once enjoyed
• Withdrawal from friends

There is a high risk of suicide with bipolar disorder. While in either phase, patients may abuse alcohol or other substances, which can worsen the symptoms.
Sometimes there is an overlap between the two phases. Manic and depressive symptoms may occur simultaneously or in quick succession in what is called a mixed state.

Treatment

For the manic phase of bipolar disorder, antipsychotic medications, lithium, and mood stabilizers are typically used. For the depressive phase, antidepressants are sometimes used, with or without the manic phase treatment.

There is very little long-term evidence suggesting that any medication has great success in the maintenance phase. However, in studies that followed patients for 2 years, lithium and some antipsychotics were found to be moderately successful.

Antipsychotic drugs can help a person who has lost touch with reality. Anti-anxiety drugs, such as benzodiazepines, may also help. The patient may need to stay in a hospital until his or her mood has stabilized and symptoms are under control.

Electroconvulsive therapy (ECT) may be used to treat bipolar disorder. ECT is a psychiatric treatment that uses an electrical current to cause a brief seizure of the central nervous system while the patient is under anesthesia. Studies have repeatedly found that ECT is the most effective treatment for depression that is not relieved with medications.

Getting enough sleep helps keep a stable mood in some patients. Psychotherapy may be a useful option during the depressive phase. Joining a support group may be particularly helpful for bipolar disorder patients and their loved ones.

Causes

Bipolar disorder affects men and women equally. It usually appears between ages 15 - 25. The exact cause is unknown, but it occurs more often in relatives of people with bipolar disorder.

Bipolar disorder results from disturbances in the areas of the brain that regulate mood.

There are two primary types of bipolar disorder. People with bipolar disorder I have had at least one fully manic episode with periods of major depression. In the past, bipolar disorder I was called manic depression.

People with bipolar disorder II seldom experience full-fledged mania. Instead they experience periods of hypomania (elevated levels of energy and impulsiveness that are not as extreme as the symptoms of mania). These hypomanic periods alternate with episodes of major depression.

A mild form of bipolar disorder called cyclothymia involves periods of hypomania and mild depression, with less severe mood swings. People with bipolar disorder II or cyclothymia may be misdiagnosed as having depression alone.

Tests & diagnosis

A diagnosis of bipolar disorder involves consideration of many factors. The health care provider may do some or all of the following:

• Ask about your family medical history, particularly whether anyone has or had bipolar disorder
• Ask about your recent mood swings and for how long you've experienced them
• Observe your behavior and mood
• Perform a thorough examination to identify or rule out physical causes for the symptoms
• Request laboratory tests to check for thyroid problems or drug levels
• Speak with your family members to discuss their observations about your behavior
• Take a medical history, including any medical problems you have and any medications you take

Note: Use of recreational drugs may be responsible for some symptoms, though this does not rule out bipolar affective disorder. Drug abuse may itself be a symptom of bipolar disorder.

Prognosis

Mood-stabilizing medication can help control the symptoms of bipolar disorder. However, patients often need help and support to take medicine properly and to ensure that any episodes of mania and depression are treated as early as possible.

Some people stop taking the medication as soon as they feel better or because they want to experience the productivity and creativity associated with mania. Although these early manic states may feel good, discontinuing medication may have very negative consequences.

Suicide is a very real risk during both mania and depression. Suicidal thoughts, ideas, and gestures in people with bipolar affective disorder require immediate emergency attention.

Complications

Stopping or improperly taking medication can cause your symptoms to come back, and lead to the following complications:

• Alcohol and/or drug abuse as a strategy to "self-medicate"
• Personal relationships, work, and finances suffer
• Suicidal thoughts and behaviors

This illness is challenging to treat. Patients and their friends and family must be aware of the risks of neglecting to treat bipolar disorder.

When to contact a doctor

Call your health provider or an emergency number right way if:

• You are having thoughts of death or suicide
• You are experiencing severe symptoms of depression or mania
• You have been diagnosed with bipolar disorder and your symptoms have returned or you are having any new symptoms

So I have come to the conclusion....That maybe, JUST maybe I might be a lil bipolar. I am going to find a way to get checked out.

I got my info from here.

stupid chick

that lady at vs...is fucking stupid. yung, i dont wear no damn c bra. i have itty bitties and i m damn proud.

really?

Once again I have sleeping on this bloggin shit. I REALLY ENJOY BLOGGIN. I am just to lazy to get my ass up.

So Tru

"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that frightens us most. We ask ourselves, 'Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, and famous?' Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that people won't feel insecure around you. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in all of us. And when we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.?
-Maryanne Williamson

I am....

A good woman is proud of herself. She respects herself and others. She is aware of who she is. She neither seeks definition from the person she is with, nor does she expect them to read her mind. She is quite capable of articulating her needs.

A good woman is hopeful. She is strong enough to make all her dreams come true. She knows love, therefore she gives loves. She recognizes that her love has great value and must be reciprocated. If her love is taken for granted, it soon disappears.

A good woman has a dash of inspiration, a dabble of endurance. She knows that she will, at times, have to inspire others to reach the potential God gave them. A good woman knows her past, understands her present and moves toward the future.

A good woman knows God. She knows that with God the world is her playground, but without God she will just be played. A good woman does not live in fear of the future because of her past. Instead, she understands that her life experiences are merely lessons, meant to bring her closer to self knowledge and unconditional self love. Girl Smile. . . YOU KNOW YOU HAVE IT GOING ON!. . . So Keep ON Keeping On.

Danceology -Twerkin

So the first dance I want to master is twerking. I never liked twerking as a child, but as I get older it's nice to know how to do a lil somethin somethin. If I don't learn how to do it the next girl will.

I am trying to get on TWERK TEAM status. This might take a while because these females are TALENTED. I am up for this challenge.

Twerk means "shaking ass while dancing"

So I have realized how twerking is done. It is a mixture of hip, knee, leg, feet, and muscles movements. What kind of muscles? Ass and leg muscles :0 You don't have to have an ass to twerk, but you will develop one. An ass is extra. It makes the twerking look wonderful.

So my 30 day twerk trial will been tomorrow:)

Danceology

Ok, I figured that I want to be the best dancer. So that means I need to MASTER a lot of dances. I can dance really good. I just procrastinate A LOT. Now this segment of True Life: I am a Dancer will document my progress. This should be fun, but it will take a lot of work and dedication. I I will be learning how to tumble, and that will come in handy :)

No Cable

I don't have CABLE, but i will when I move into the new rib later on this month.